Monday, December 9, 2013

It's been forever... again

A big "thank you" to anyone who still reads this blog. Between no longer having a Facebook account to post photos and not writing frequently... I am not sure who might still be out there reading these words. But... I write more for my own memories anyway. ;)

As the Christmas cards are rolling in... I wanted to make sure I took some time to type out memories and updates about our children. These days are flying by... my memory is failing as I try to keep up with all the sweet and funny moments... I don't want to miss this sacred time.

This fall has been a blur! I began teaching a class at our church for moms. We are going through the book Desperate by Sarah Mae and Sally Clarkson so each week I was responsible for coming up with a 20 minute talk! I have loved this opportunity!

The kids have enjoyed their class that they go to while I teach and then they also are still going to their Awana class on Wednesday nights. That has been keeping our weeks busy, but also sickly. The children have been so sick this fall. Okay, to rephrase, the younger two have been sick! The older two have remained healthy except the occasional runny nose. Selah and Asa have both had the stomach flu twice. The first time it lasted 8 days for Selah and 4 for Asa. The second time it was 5 days for both. Ugh. I hate vomit and grow incredibly anxious.... so it was a learning time for me.

In August we took a short vacation to Columbus, OH where we visited with friends and went to the AMAZING zoo. In October, we celebrated Havana's 5th birthday, trick-or-treated at the zoo and in our neighborhood, and took a family overnight trip to a hotel in French Lick, Indiana that had an indoor water park. Last month we enjoyed a fun Thanksgiving and now we are in the midst of Advent season. I created an advent calendar for us as family and one for Jason. This has added so much anticipation, celebration, and intentionality to celebrating Jesus' birthday.

Here's a recap of each kiddo:

HAVANA:

Havana turned 5(!!!!) at the end of October. I still can't believe my baby is that old. To celebrate, Jason and I took her on a date. We went to Chuck-E-Cheese, then to Panda Express, and then to Target. She enjoyed herself and we thought it was great. She had a little friend party earlier in the month - it was a painting party because she wanted a Vincent Van Gogh party because she loves the Baby Van Gogh video.

She has told me that she has God in her heart. She told me that she said a prayer that went like this, "Dear God, Please come live in my heart so that I don't disobey anymore. I love you, Jesus, amen." Now she is telling me she wants to be baptized. She has always had such a strong faith... her prayer life is beautiful... it is so fun to watch her love the Word of God! She is one amazing little girl.

She is doing a lot of things on her own now: getting dressed, combing her hair, and spreading her own PB for her sandwich.  She thinks she is "big stuff" now that she is five... so we occasionally have to remind her that she isn't in charge. Like today, when she told selah that once she is six she will be in charge. ha. She is geared up for school and can't wait to start next year. We still don't know where she will go, but she loves the idea of school. She is reading ready and beginning to sound out words that she sees. Her sight word list is huge now. She loves to play hang-man and practice her sight words by that.

Havana's favorite color is blue, she loves any type of dessert or breakfast food, and she doesn't like to drink milk at all. If you ask her what her favorite thing to do is she would say paint. She is my arts and crafts girl. Often saying, "Mom, I need to cut and tape something."

She is also taking things very literally. For example, I was telling her something (don't remember now what it was) but I used the phrase, "We never do this. And I repeat: We never do this." Yet, she thought I meant for her to repeat it after me. haha. kind of blew my parenting moment when I broke out in laughter. Oh well... next time. :)

JONAH:

Jonah is 3.5 now and all boy. He loves trains, trucks, fire trucks, ambulances, etc. I always tell him that God gave him the heart of a hero. He points out every kind of truck that we see. He will point out different types of trucks or train cars. We gave him a firetruck bed a few months ago and so at least once a day we all hop on it and put out fires. Then, we drive back to the fire station where Jonah fixes us dinner of "something fresh with a capri-son" to drink. He also enjoys baseball and wrestling with his daddy (his sisters too but we discourage that). He is a smart boy who pays attention to things around him in such great detail I am often amazed at what he picks up. He also has the funniest facial expressions ever. He is still great at playing by  himself, but has started to really desire for Jason or I to be playing with him. Sadly, he is passive enough that we sometimes put him off for too long, but we are both working on that.

His favorite color is red. His favorite shows are Thomas the train, Chuggington, and Paw Patrol. He continues to be our good eater... his most recent favorite is chicken poppyseed. He has started getting interested in books and is asking us to read to him a lot. He will usually only pick out books that have a train or fire truck in them, but it is fun to snuggle up and read him stories. I usually let him pick one special one that I read to only him right before his bedtime.

He loves to run around in only his underwear. For some reason he thinks pants and shirts are completely unnecessary. So, if you stop by, chances are he will be running around in his tighty-whities... or perhaps even bare bottomed. ha. He is also very particular about his underwear. He changes it every time he goes to the bathroom. He likes to be fresh, I guess. ha.

A cute phrase he is saying now is "zero minutes" he will ask me if I can rub him back and I will tell him I can for a few minutes, but he will say, "How about for zero minutes?" If I say ten minutes he will say, "No, not ten. How about zero." He's funny.

SELAH: 

Oh my selah girl. She is hot or cold... just like me. She either is loving on you and laughing or she is crying and yelling "don't talk to me." She loves to go upside down and spin round-and-round. She loves dancing and singing. She still doesn't know how to self-soothe though so if things don't go her way she cries and demands to be held or for a cup of milk. We are slowly trying to teach her how to gain self-control, but I honestly think the fact we never made her "cry-it out" as a baby is coming back to haunt us.

Selah is hysterical. She is funny to watch and listen to. Just today she was reading me a book and each page started with "once upon a time" and she is just naturally a funny girl. The problem is, she knows it. So when I am trying to correct her she will give me a look that she knows I laugh at. She loves the color yellow and reading books. She is not much of a show watcher, but does really enjoy Wonder Pets and shows by the "cedarmont kids" which are children singing Bible songs. The sad thing is, Jason and I googled these children, and they are now almost 30! Eeek! There is boy on there named Robert who selah really likes. She will always say, "I Really like Robert." and Havana has suggested that we have a Robert party for her 3rd birthday and that we get her a robert bed (since we got jonah a firetruck bed).

Over the past few months she has entered this phase where she only wants to be around us. We have been getting paged out of church to pick her up and her only excuse is that "I really missed you." If I ask her if she likes something she will say, "no, I only like you." Sweet, but a little stifling at the same time.

She is getting tall and her hair is getting long. She is ready to be potty trained, but I am still dragging my feet. Poor girl. She did go #2 on the potty the other day on her own. I think that is a cry for me to move forward.

Selah does awesome at helping clean up the toys at night. She is always so good at obeying when I tell everyone it is time to clean up. Hope it stays that way.

ASA: 

What a wonderful little boy we were blessed with! He is so happy and sweet. He loves to snuggle! He is now 11 months old. He began crawling at 9 months and until recently it was an army crawl, but now he is up on all fours. He is a bit of a troublemaker... always crawling quickly to Tucker's water bowl, but aside from that, goodness he is edible. He can say "da da" and "yeah" and today Jason thought he heard him say "tucker" -- he loves to be held! He still takes two naps a day... both around 2 hours in length and his night time sleeping has greatly improved to usually sleeping 10-12 hours.
Asa loves to eat. No longer my "failure to thrive" boy... he has chunked up as he began eating solids. This boy will eat any and everything you put on his plate. He honestly eats more than I do sometimes.  He still won't hold his own bottle, but aside from that, he is great.
He is so happy and flexible... he truly makes having four children easy. I hope he always stays that way. I can't believe he is almost a year!

Jason and  I:

We are doing well. We had a few blah months earlier in the year when we were at odds with what our future family should look like, but ultimately God is working on both of us... so who knows what is in store. I am confident that children will be added to our family, but unsure if they will be biological, adoption, or both! Being a couple who doesn't believe in medical birth control (it causes abortions!) it makes the concept of "family planning" difficult. Which, the Lord has really been bringing me back to my controlling nature and the fact that I want to control how many children we have and how close together my children are and I have really been feeling His prick at my heart to stop controlling everything. So... who knows. :) I weekly blog about our journey to marriage at darbydugger.com 

We are getting ready to celebrate our 9th wedding anniversary! To celebrate we are going to a hotel for a night! This will only be the 2nd time we have gone away for the night since having children! I am so excited I can barely handle it. :)  I love him so much. He is so patient and kind with me... such a man after God's own heart. I certainly married up!




Sunday, October 6, 2013

Havana of Great Faith!

Our sweet girl has such an incredible faith in the Lord! She is always encouraging me in my own walk by all of her deep questions... she brings up God all. the. time.

Here are a few examples of her incredible child-like faith:

Selah had broken a DVD that Havana really enjoyed (baby bach) and a few days later Havana asked to watch it. I told her that it wasn't going to work because it was cracked and that "you can't fix a crack in a DVD" -- as sure as anything she said, "God could heal it!" My response was, "You're right, Havana, God can... doesn't mean He always will... but He can do anything."

While having her rest time I overheard her sing, "I may be a small girl, but I can do big things for You, God."

She loves to get on the microphone (of her littler karaoke machine) and sing "You should know God. You should tell everyone about God. He loves us all so much. He can do anything." -- she went on and on about how amazing God is and how we should tell everyone about Him.

One day, she was crying upstairs, and Jason told me he overheard her praying, "God, I am alone... can you come and be with me?" I have overheard her praying for Him to help her find things.

She asks a lot of questions about heaven, what God looks like, and how can we hear God. I have been working with her to listen to God with her heart and that we can see him by looking at his beautiful creation and seeing kindness in others.

She knows her bible. She knows the stories, the order, and her Bible verses. She is passionate about us reading it together each day.

The other day she drew a picture... when she showed it to me my heart leapt. It was a note that she wrote on her own that said, "Havana loves Frank." Frank is our sponsored child in Africa that we write to and pray for often. he is only six. She said he was on her heart and she wanted to write to him. This was completely unprompted by me! When I shared that with Jason at dinner, he told Havana that God was speaking to her by laying it on her heart to write to Frank. I told her how God is going to use her to encourage others. She has such a golden spirit...

About three weeks ago she began to tell us she has God in her heart. We talk about that a lot at our house... how daddy and mommy have "Jesus in their heart" and how people who have "Jesus in their heart" can hear him and go to heaven and have a hope that isn't in this world or in ourselves. How awesome! Anyway, she began saying she had God in her heart and at first I thought it was just talk, but then I began to see a difference in her. She is truly being transformed into a selfless, obedient little girl... she still struggles of course... but it isn't like how it was. I told Jason that perhaps she did, all on her own, as Jesus into her heart.

So amazed by my little girl. Praying every day that her faith takes root deep within her heart.






Jonah the Firefighter

Dear Jonah,

You are almost 3.5 years old... you asked me tonight when you will turn 4 and for some reason that sounded old to me. I can't believe you are quickly approaching the end of your toddler years! It is a sheer delight and gift to be your mother.

You LOVE firetrucks... watching them, pretending to ride them...
You LOVe pretending you are a firefighter. The other night at dinner you were talking about being "Firefighter Jonah" and I told Daddy, "Jonah sure does love to pretend he is a firefighter" and you said "Not pretend... am!" (my bad...)
You love to rescue things... and you spend hours playing firefighter each and every day. God laid on my heart that He gave you the heart of a hero and so I try to tell you that at least once a day.

Jonah, God gave you the heart of a hero. It will be so fun to watch you grow into the purposes He has had planned for You since the beginning of time.

For your third birthday we threw you a firefighter bday party. You had a small friend gathering at the ark and then a small family party complete with fire cupcakes. You delighted in everyone singing you "Happy Birthday" -- what a special party for such a special boy.

Because of your great passion, your daddy ordered you a Firetruck bed! You LOVE it. There is a steering wheel and daddy added a hose... you love spending time in your room. You even ask up to go up to your room to play in your bed. How fun! You don't know it yet, but your daddy has also ordered you a real flashing siren that should be here soon. You will love it!

I don't know when your passion for firefighting started... I remember last year you burned your hand on the fireplace because you were trying to get a good look at the pilot flame. You also have been shocked by an outlet, stung by a jellyfish, and burned by a sparkler... so one would think you would avoid anything resembling a fire truck, but nope... it has only made you that much more passionate.

A few days ago we took you to the fire station. The nice firemen gave you a tour and taught you a little but about fire safety. Tonight, when I was tucking you in, you asked if we could go back there because you wanted to ride in the firetruck again.

Jonah, you are funny. Naturally funny. You don't even try to be comical and yet you send us all into hysterics. You make funny face, you tell funny jokes, and you have really funny dance moves. The other night you introduced us to "Conkey" -- you named one of our toys Conkey and then proceeded to talk about him all the time. I will ask you a question and you will answer "Conkey" -- he has become your imaginary friend. I still don't know where you came up with that word, but you are passionate about him.

You are also so smart. Daddy and I are still talking and praying about what to do with you and school... we aren't sure if we are going to hold you back or not, but regardless of the fact we don't think you would enjoy a school setting right now you are super smart. You are freakishly good at the game "Memory" and you do remember random things (names of characters, reasons you were in trouble a few weeks ago, etc.).  Just today when we picked you up from your Sunday School class, the teacher saw your worksheet and couldn't believe it was yours because your handwriting was so good! I'm so proud of you, bubby.

You are beginning to really enjoy being a boy. You love to play ball and rough house... it is fun, after years of playing with havana's toys, to see you naturally thrive in your boyish nature. I will even ask you for a kiss and you will say, "Um, no thank you." Or "yuck." (which I don't approve of, by the way, you are way to young to be calling my kisses "yuck") .

Your communication skills are awesome. You are learning responsibility by always cleaning up your own plate and cup after meals. You are learning how to put on your own clothes and you have mastered the art of peeing and pooping in in the potty (for a while you could only pee...). There isn't a day that goes by where i am not completely amazed by you. I am so very blessed to be your mommy.


As Jonah approached this dinosaur he said, "Is he going to eat me?" My safety-first boy!

Dear Asa

Dear Asa,

Tonight is Sunday, October 6th... this past Friday, October 4th, you turned 9 months old. I don't know where the time goes. It wasn't that long ago that you were merely my (breech) baby in the belly. Then you were born and time exploded... now you are my 9 month little dude. My heart aches and celebrates this... something you most likely won't understand until you are a parent yourself.

You remain my super content little boy. You honestly make life so easy because you are agreeable, flexible, and almost always smiling! I could snuggle you forever and so I delight in the fact that you are still somewhat of a snuggle bug!

You aren't crawling yet, but you do roll and lurch everywhere. There has been more than one occasion where I put you down in one room and then am totally surprised when I find you in a different room only a few minutes later.

You have two bottom teeth and a huge appetite. You eat anything I put in front of you - although the past few days you have been protesting the baby food and demanding solids. I'm okay with that! :)

You laugh and shriek at your siblings... you were so excited yesterday when we moved you to a new "big boy" carset... we have put away the baby boat, the boppy, the floor mats, and your swings. You have now officially outgrown the baby phase. Again, my heart celebrates and grieves this.

You struggled with sleep the first 8.5 months of your life, but now it seems that you have it down pat. I think you've been sleeping through the night for a week now! Ha. You struggled with spitting up the first 8.5 months of your life as well... projectile spit up was your signature until last week. Now, you have put away those childish things and moved on. ;) But even with the no sleep and the constant spit up... I could not have asked for a better 4th child than you. You are terrific!

I tell you every day that I am so lucky to be your mama... and it is true. I don't know how, out of all the mamas in the world, that God blessed me with YOU, Asa, but I am so glad that He did. You are a gift. A treasure. A someone I will never take for granted. I love you.

Mama

Friday, September 27, 2013

Elijah

Yesterday, the 26th, was the 6th (wow) anniversary of Elijah's passing. That day is always hard for me, but the Lord remains faithful in holding my heart. I did tear up though as Havana (4 years old) was asking me questions while I was doing her hair... our conversation went something like this:

"Mom, when will I see God with my own eyes?"
"If  you look around, You can see Him everywhere... You can see Him in the sunrise and sunset. You can see Him in the kindness of others. You can see His fingerprints everywhere."
"But when will I see His face?"
"When you go to heaven?"
"When will that happen?"
"When you are done living on this earth"
"Oh."
"Who is in heaven now? Do I know anyone?"
"Well, grammie is in heaven. And so is your older brother Elijah and Jonah's Twin Jonas"
"Is there a Havanas?"
"nope"
"A Selahas?"
"nope"
"An Asaas?"
"nope"
"Just a Jonas?"
"yep."
"Why did you lost Elijah?" (I've mentioned him before and said that I had lost him...)
"I don't know. God has a purpose for his short little life, but it was very brief."
"Oh. If you didn't lost him it would be Elijah, then Havana, then Jonah, then Selah, then Asa... There would be 5 of us."
"Yep. You're right."

(of course at this point my heart is breaking and I am also thinking well, 6 if Jonah's twin had survived.... and seven if our adoption had panned out... but I kept these thoughts to myself. It took me several minutes to fight back the tears. How I adore my precious firstborn who is so inquisitive. How I love my babies who are heaven. How I love our adopted daughter... wherever she is right now.)

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Hubers


The other day we spent some time at Hubers farm! The weather was perfect and the family time was sweet! We went up there last month to pick peaches and blackberries and this time we just went up, had a picnic lunch, and played. God is such an incredible artist and Jason and I enjoyed talking about our faith in Him while we watched the sun set. I am so grateful for my family and for our faith in The Lord! As I told Jason, "If someone wants proof that God exists... Take a look at our hearts!" He has been changing and maturing us both and the life transformation is undeniable!!! What a mighty God we serve!!!


As we were playing with the children- Havana asked if I would watch her play ball so that I could cheer for her! Such fun memories!! 



Sunday, August 11, 2013

Awesome-tastic!

At the pool, while Havana was swimming without any flotation device she was very proud of herself so she said, "I am awesome-tastic!" 

:) couldn't agree more! She is awesome-tastic!!!!